Beauty


The nature of beauty is subjective and random. One day, something may attract, and, on another day, the same thing may repulse. Novelty enhances superficial beauty. Experience enhances appreciation of deeper beauty. I spent a part of today working in my garden. There I learned some things about beauty, time and labor. Try it.

Hospitality


I was raised in European style. My family, for the most part, were new Americans. Our home, where my maternal grandmother lived, was the social nucleus for an extended family. This entailed weekly Sunday luncheons, gastronomic affairs with an abundance of peasant foods, recreated from Old World recipes.

I attended Euro-centric schools, taught by nuns and then Jesuits. The Jesuits who taught me were Francophiles for the most part. They summered in Europe, bicycled along the Loire, studied in Rome's libraries.

The Jesuits, being a rather hedonistic bunch despite their vow of poverty, taught us table manners, general etiquette and the ancient manners of hospitality, based in Greco-Roman civilization. It was a different time, before rappers and the omnipresent usage of obscenities in common speech.

I am glad I had the opportunity to glimpse the life of a more gracious time. Today, I value the exchange of hospitality greatly, but I find few people trained in or appreciative of the niceties of truly hospitable behavior. The general attitude today is rather basic and anarchic. "Here's the remote. There's the refrigerator and the microwave." Manners are often considered snobbery. This is a loss for the species. Perhaps it is an inevitability in an overpopulated and alienating world.

Part of my practice of compassion and caring is my developed sense of hospitality, despite my means. Hospitality is not made up of grand gestures. It is a sincere and affectionate sharing of one's happiness, home and resources.

Responsibility


One of the symptoms of overpopulation is the absence of responsibility and accountability between one individual and another in simple day-to-day interactions.

Capitalism thrives on overpopulation. This is basic to its structure. More customers, more widgets sold, more money for the capitalist. In fact, a scarcity of widgets, which inconveniences the widget-buyer, is a good thing for the capitalist, who can charge more per widget. Hence, the gouging of survivors of any disaster by those capitalists who have food and services to sell. This is not human nature. This is capitalist nature.

When capitalism is applied to health care, the result is plain to see in any hospital today. Too many patients, intentionally rationed resources, high prices, overworked providers of care and no accountability. Lack of accountability is almost a necessity in a hospital where the volume of patients exceeds the capacity of the facility. The administrators, capitalists from capitalist university educations, are delighted by this situation. More fees, more money for more buildings and higher administrative salaries. But, the patients receive inadequate care. The providers become irresponsible, because their mandate is dominated now by economic gain, not quality of care.

I recently encountered this process again. A resident physician wrote an incorrect prescription for a necessary pain medication for someone who just had a significant surgical procedure. The physician had not taken the time to research the pain medication in order to prescribe the correct dosage. I took the prescription to the pharmacy, where an overworked and exasperated pharmacy worker refused to fill the prescription. The medication was needed immediately for the surgical patient, whose pain was understandably acute and worsening.

The overworked pharmacist made a minimal attempt to correct the problem: A phone call to a voice machine. I had to pursue the issue for the next three hours by telephone. I was told the erring physician, when contacted, refused to correct the prescription on the grounds that he was "busy". I was told another physician would take care of it. Nothing happened. I called the surgeon's ofice and then managed to speak with one highly motivated and responsive person who took pains to accommodate the patient's comfort needs. Even then, the pharmacist made a frantic protest, upon my return to the pharmacy across town. Though she had the prescription guaranteed from the responsible provider I had contacted, she balked at providing the medication, now two hours overdue for the patient. Her reason: She had not received a fax.

Being committed and feeling highly responsible for the vulnerable and traumatized patient/friend, I had exhausted myself to provide a simple pill two hours later than necessary to control his severe pain. Meanwhile, the capitalist-based providers had made tens of thousands of dollars for delivering irresponsible, unresponsive services. To hold these people to account under the current system is even more exhausting and far from effective in the larger picture. They can simply get away with it by shuffling responsibility around and moving on to make more money.

This is the future, unless enough people say 'no' and work to change the world. This is the whole basis and purpose of practice in a society.

Equality


Equality as a human right begins in the mind of the individual.

Getting married does not make a gay man equal. Adopting a child does not make a lesbian equal. Going to Harvard does not make a black man equal. Running for President does not make a woman equal.

These are simply the outward signs of equality according to human law and convention.

I made myself equal in my own mind and heart when I revolted against a violent and domineering family. I was twenty at the time. It was the beginning of my adulthood and the beginning of my individual practice of personal evolution. I said "No!" to violence, insults and constant attempts to control my life by my parents. Until then, I was depressed, confused and impotent, just the way my family liked me to be.

No amount of mimicking or sincerely imitating an oppressor will give you your own equality and subsequent freedom. This has been the mistake of many conservative political movements for change in the status of minorities. The wealthy heterosexual elite in American society derive great pleasure from these attempts at being like them. But they will not surrender their power and oppression without fear of the consequences of not surrendering those evils. They fear one thing: Loss of money, whether it be in the form of personal property, corporate assets, political power or social power.

The only protection of human rights is constant protest of their abuse in the face of the abusers, those in power. The human rights of all will not be assured until the weakest among us are protected from violence, oppression and poverty. The core of that protest is each individual person's actualization of his/her personal equality. That begins with saying "No!" to those in one's life who hurt, oppress and impoverish.

Knowing


Knowing oneself is difficult.
It is the cornerstone of practice.
Always playing roles is poison.
It erodes the center of the soul.

Knowing oneself requires strength.
Looking at the unpleasant is hard.
Working to change it is harder.
Not changing at all is death.

Knowing oneself brings true joy.
Accepting the beauty is the gift.
Nurturing it is true evolution.
Ignoring it enforces the unpleasant.

Knowing to change and grow is practice.